I Want to Remember

A few nights ago, I went for a bike ride that ended by the lake. It was the most beautiful evening.

I could not begin to count the number of times I’ve run down to the lake to catch the sunset.

There have been so many different things I’ve wrestled through with God while sitting down there on the dock. I have cried and prayed and rejoiced and marveled at His creation, again and again.

This last time, I drank in that view one more time, and soaked in all that peace and quiet. The waves were lapping at the shore, and I tried to take it all in to the very depths of my being.

I want to take it all with me wherever I go.

What frightens me about moving is that our family might forget – forget what it’s like to live this weird, wonderful, peaceful (but hectic in the summer!) life out here in the woods.

I’m scared we’ll forget what it’s like to go at a slower pace, and what it’s like to breathe in the smell of pine trees, or to walk outside on a snowy day so peaceful and silent, you can almost hear the snowflakes falling.

I wonder how quickly we’ll slip back into “normal” life, and I wonder if we’ll forever be changed by all that has happened.

Right now it feels like I will always remember, but I wonder if it’s kind of like being on vacation – you have an amazing time, but when you come back, normal life sets in so quick, it almost seems like that vacation never happened.

I don’t want the last five years to feel that way. I want our family to adjust well, and I want to love living in Niverville again. But I also want to have changed so much that we can’t ever go back to living the way we did before we came here.

Not that life was so bad back then. It was just very busy, full, noisy, and crazy. Because Ben worked for a church, we were always rushing off to events and meetings and programs. Those were all very good things, but we had no time for some really important things.

Being at camp has taught me to breathe and go slow, to enjoy the view, and to have time for people.

I’ve learned that a quiet half hour down by the lake can do wonders for the soul, and leave me feeling like I’ve been feasting on heavenly things.

Fortunately, the sun still sets in Niverville, too. May the feasting continue!

Some Enchanted Evening

Two amazing things happened last night.

The first was that Anika asked me to stop beside the road on our way home from the city, so that we could watch the sun setting over the lake together.

The second amazing thing was that I did it.

Anyone who knows me should know that I am all for stopping to enjoy the sunset. But not usually after a loooong day in the city, and a looooong drive home, without Ben. It was past the girls’ bedtime, and Kaylia and I were eager to get home, but….Anika wanted to watch the sunset.

So we did, and I’m so glad that we did. Suddenly, instead of the evening seeming long and tiring, it seemed enchanting. Once we tore ourselves away from the incredible view, we slowly drove past a whole bunch of deer. Anika was beside herself with excitement, because she saw her “first real live man-deer!” And after that, Kaylia talked about a “man-deer” all the way home.

Moral of the Story: Stop to enjoy the sunset and the man-deer every chance you get!

Last Night’s Sunset

Have you ever noticed that the best sunsets happen when there are clouds in the sky? I think life is like that, too. We see God’s goodness shining through the most when things are hard.

We still see it when the skies are clear, but the colors and the light show more dramatically when there are some clouds in the way.

I like that.

Favorite Things Right Now

Tomorrow is my 32nd birthday. Besides thinking about how old that sounds, I’ve also been thinking about what my life is like right now. My mom always used to write down our favorite foods every year, just so that we could look back and see what things we liked.

So, in honor of my birthday, I’m going to write down the things I like right now, the things that are bringing joy and pleasure to my life at the age of 32:

1) Homemade Granola

This is my biggest treat. Words cannot describe how much I love this. So I’m sharing the recipe I always use for Homemade Granola with you, so you can experience this happiness as well. (It is 5000 times better than bought granola. No comparison.)

Aunt Alvera’s Homemade Granola

Mix 8 cups dry oatmeal, 2 cups chopped pecans, 1 cup flaked coconut, 1 cup wheat germ and 1 cup brown sugar in a bowl. (I leave out all the sweet stuff – fruit is sweet, don’t need sugar!) Mix 3/4 cup oil, 3/4 cup water, 1 tsp. vanilla and 1 tsp. salt together, and add to dry ingredients. Mix well, then spread in shallow pans. Bake at 275-300 for 1/2 an hour, stirring in between.

2) Watching the Sun Set Over the Lake

3) Orthotics!

I have just begun my relationship with orthotics, and I’m completely hooked already. They are changing my life. I’ve been dealing with a lot of hip and back pain for years, didn’t really know why, and after a few weeks of using insoles, things are already getting so much better. So glad I decided to try something new, and go to a podiatrist!

4) Learning Ballroom Dancing With Youtube Videos!

Ever since I saw “The Sound of Music” for the first time as a little girl, I’ve wanted to learn how to twirl. And now I know. Thanks to youtube.

5) Norwex!

I used to wonder why people couldn’t stop talking about some silly rags. I mean, they’re rags. But then around the time that I finally started realizing that I got a headache every time I cleaned my bathroom, my friend Julia became a Norwex consultant and told me everything she knows. And now I can’t stop talking about my AMAZING rags!! And don’t even get me started on the laundry detergent!

6) Beth Moore Bible Studies!

I’m doing an online study right now called “Believing God”, and it is incredible. I’m learning so much from it. It should really be mandatory for every woman to do a Beth Moore study.