Almost every moment of the day, I am quite aware of the fact that I’ve got a passenger on board. I feel the extra pounds I’m carrying around, I can’t fit through small spaces anymore, and those wild kicks inside are a frequent reminder that my body is shared property right now!
But the other morning, I woke up, and just for the first moment or two, I forgot that I’m pregnant. Baby was completely still, and there was nothing to remind me of my big belly. Of course, realization quickly kicked in, but I lay there for a bit, thinking of what it felt like to be “the old me”.
And something amazing came to my mind – once this baby is out, and my body goes back to the usual way of things, I will never, ever be “the old me.” I have another child, and our family will be forever different.
I will be different. I suddenly realized one of the interesting changes this pregnancy has brought – it has destroyed a label over my life. For years, I was told that I couldn’t have another baby. My body was not strong enough, and I was not healthy enough. There was such an intense longing inside of me for another baby, and I thought I would carry that unfulfilled longing with me for the rest of my life.
That morning, it hit me – the longing is fulfilled, and I am free. My body is strong enough, I am healthy enough. I am not that person anymore, and suddenly, I felt as though I could do anything, be anything – that anything is possible.
God has poured out this blessing on my life, and I have been reminded once again that His words are the only ones that really matter. All those therapists who said this pregnancy wasn’t possible? They don’t get the final say.
I used to take in those words people told me – I let others label my life, and tell me how it would be. But that’s changing.
A few months ago, my dear friend was told her little girl may never walk. She emailed me to ask for prayer, and as I brought the situation to God, I asked Him, “What do you want to say in all of this?”
And the words that came immediately to mind were, “What God has to say about that little girl’s life is far more important than what any doctor has to say.” I saw such a clear picture of God holding that sweet girl in His hands. He had the situation covered.
You know what? Just a short time later, she’s now walking.
I’m not saying we don’t need doctors.
I love doctors. I’m very thankful for them.
What I am saying is that God is still doing the impossible today, and if there are words I’m going to play over and over in my mind, I want them to be His words. I want to hang on to His promises. I want to throw off the old labels, and become the person He made me to be.
3 thoughts on “Choosing What I’m Going to Listen To”
Thank you, Kendra. I love that line: “…if there are words I’m going to play over and over in my mind, I want them to be His words.” I’m all for destroying labels!!! God has the final say. Thank you for the reminder.
Praise God, and congratulations!
love your heart and your words, and I concur You will not go back to being the same, You are wonderfully new and will continue to be renewed , transformed, healed and alive!!!!!