It is 24 days until our new adventure begins.
I feel at peace about everything.
Funny, because generally I have not faced change with peace. I always feel excited about change, but every other time, I’ve also been filled to the brim with stress.
While I was packing today, I came across a little notebook I used five years ago when we were preparing to move to camp. In it, I recorded everything that stressed me out each day, so that I could pray over everything and try to surrender it to God.
My word, am I ever thankful it’s not five years ago.
(I actually laughed at some of the things I had written down.)
One issue I was apparently stressed about at the time was the amount of stuff we had, and what in the world we were going to do with it all.
Today, I sat there reading this, surrounded by mounds of stuff to pack….and it didn’t bother me in the least.
See, change is possible. God can still do miracles today!!
I was in a very different place in my life five years ago. I had recently had a miscarriage, I was dealing with the very worst of my health issues, and emotionally unstable might be the best words to describe that time of my life.
Oh, God is so good. These last five years have been years of gaining back health, being blessed with that long-desired baby, and learning a ton about myself and how I deal with emotions and stress.
It’s not like everything is perfect at our house these days. Moving is still a big transition. Anika has a lot of nightmares as she tries to find her own way through this all, and as far as Kaylia is concerned, I’ve decided there will be a much better time and place for potty training her.
Like when she’s seven.
And I’ve decided not to worry about it. (See? Look at how good I’m getting at not worrying about stuff.)
Instead, I try to keep up with the day-to-day stuff, and I pack a little, and we play and read books a little.
I do yoga daily, and try to eat the best I can. (I will not eat chips. I WILL NOT EAT CHIPS! Things go much better with my body when I do not eat chips, but…all I want are chips!)
So whether my attempts at handling things well are working, or there are tons of people praying for the sanity of our family, or God has just chosen to be extra gracious to us, we are doing fairly well with this whole transition thing. (Now that I said that, just watch me completely crash tomorrow…)
I feel like there are many thoughts and memories and goals for the future swirling around that somehow need to be expressed, and yet that takes time. And some of it is still marinating in my mind. We’ll see when it’s ready to come out.
But for now, the sun is shining, the pile of boxes packed is slowly growing, and life must still go on and be enjoyed, even if we’re moving…